This has not been the summer that I thought it would be. Where to begin...let's start at the beginning. I know that I have already talked about some this before in earlier posts so please for give me.
We started the summer out like always. Get out of school go to camp. This was Aby's first year to be able to go. She loved every minute of it. This was the first time that she has been away from me for that long. I was more nervous than she was about going. While they were at camp, Jason and I along with friends, Al and Brittany Fishburn, went to New Orleans. This was the first time since our honeymoon that Jason and I got away with out any children. We had a great time with friends. New Orleans on the other hand was very dirty and just plain NASTY. New Orleans was not what I remembered from my college days. I did enjoy taking pictures and seeing all the different buildings and people. Loved, loved Cafe Du Monde and the iced coffee. We loved the Port of Call restaurant. If you ever go to New Orleans you have to try this place. They only serve hamburgers, salads, and baked potatoes. Sooooo Gooood!
In July, a donor sent all the children and staff to Walt Disney. This was a wonderful surprise to get to go 2 years in a row with an up grade in rooms. We got to stay at the Caribbean Beach Resort. Our beds were pirate ships. We all had a great time. On the 2nd day, I was not feeling to good. I did something to aggravate my chest and felt sick to my stomach all day and very weak. When we got back to our room the bottom fell out of the sky, and who likes to be wet. Aby and I chilled out the rest of the day. I hated to end my day like that but I had to care of myself. Plus Aby needed to rest and cool off.
On July 12th, our world came tumbling down. Jason was called to Robert's office and we were let go from Palmer Home with no real reason. (Please note that I said Jason was called over NOT me. I feel that Robert was a coward because he didn't want to face any confrontation from me) Only thing that he was said was we feel this is not the place for you anymore. After almost 6 years of service, we were given one day's notice. I have my own reasons for why we were let go, but I will keep that to myself. Some days my feelings are all over the place about this and the person that delivered the news. I am struggling with anger, betrayal, forgiveness, and hatred. I ask God daily to give me a forgiving heart. I look everyday for the blessing that I know God will give us. I love being Jase and Aby's mom, but I miss my other children that I was forced to give up. I Love and miss them so much and pray daily for them. I miss my life there but I am learning to trust in God and that He knows what is best for me and my little family.
So we moved back to Columbus, where Jason's family lives. Jase and Aby are loving being back with their Grandparents, but they miss their brothers and sisters also. Jason starts a new job on Monday. It is not what we wanted but God will provide for us. He is going to keep looking until something better comes along or maybe this is were God wants him to be either way we are very grateful for the opportunity. I am still looking, but it is very hard with one vehicle. But I have hope and faith and that is all that counts.
So as always I have a crazy busy life, but I am learning to slow down and enjoy that little things...
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